Alone/Someone

I'm alone.
all alone in this world.
Alone to deal with my pain.
Alone to deal with my situation.
all alone.

Everyone thinks those words once maybe twice in a week, month or year. if they are lucky, in a lifetime. So how alone are you?
On one level, its just you against the world. you are facing it alone. No one will feel it like you do. No one is in the situation as you are in, the position you are.
On another level, look around. if you cant find a single person waiting to catch you. Problem. But the probability of that is pretty low. In that case you are driving people away and need some serious help.
No?
don't think your driving them away?
Cant see anyone?
Are you sure?
Look harder.
yeah.
Right there.
There's someone.
and another.
Oh LORD! Do I really see a third? It seems I do.
Most of the time, your not looking hard enough. Someone is ALWAYS there.Someone might not get how to deal with the situation. Someone might not know what to say or do. But that someone is still there, by your side or a little way behind.. Someone might just be waiting for you to need again. To confront the issue and say "Yeah, i can't deal with this, I need support." Someone is praying that you turn around and see that they will be there, all you have to do is pick up the phone and call, pick up a pen and write, switch on a computer and type. Anything. Sometimes, just talking about it helps. Sometimes just knowing that someones there is enough. Sometimes nothing is. That's when you sit down and count the stars that shine on you. Even if it is only one. Even if the only good thing is that there is a someone. When you see that Someone you will find that it is Someone who loves you and always will. Someone who may not know how to be there but will try if you just let them, show them, tell them how. Someone who's waiting for you to reach out. Someone ready to catch you.
You'll find that someone is me.

Authors Note: Its 2:00 AM at night. My thoughts are jumbled my feeling escalated and confused. This piece is raw and unedited. Its not my best. My point and purpose is simple, convey a message to someone. To that person, I say this, You know who you are. I miss you.